My first year of motherhood has been a curvy one. My life with Langston has been wonderful, but my life as a companion was a very rough one. I found out I wasn't exactly cut out for a relationship, and I've spent the last year really embracing my single mother status. Currently, I've never in my life felt more sure of myself and the things I want. I have surrounded myself in a solid rock group of family and friends, and all around I feel nothing but thankful.
Co-parenting hasn't gotten any easier, and maybe it never will. That's a question I haven't yet found the answer to but I'm willing to just go where life takes me at this point. I don't want to dwell on my co-parenting or custody issues anymore. I'm really looking to move forward and start new with Langston's first birthday right around the corner. With that being said, this is sort of my farewell post to any and all Little Man Langston readers.
This blog has been a lot of things for me. It’s been a way for my family to watch Langston grow, it's been a support group for other young mamas that are in similar situations, and most of all it’s been extremely therapeutic. Anytime I would post a rant over how angry something made me, it made it that much better to get emails from other women dealing with the same troubles. From wanting to gag every time you saw a happy expecting couple, to just how difficult it is to find a decent guy. There was always a mama coming along telling me they were also gagging, and that tomorrow would be a better day.
A lot of people say they don't understand blogging. They find it silly, and see it as just another way to slather your private life all over the very public internet. But really it's so much more than that. The mama blogging world can come across as intimidating (there's so many of us), but in reality we're all here blogging about our lives so that other women can relate and get the support they need. Not to mention we all just deserve some "me" time. Whether you've reached out to be a supportive role in my life, or you've been one of the few to send me nasty emails - you were all a stepping stone in helping me get where I am now, and for that I'm thankful.
This isn't the end for my blogging journey. I think I would just like to pull away from the "single mother" title and start fresh. Expanding your horizons never hurt anyone. Please standby for an upcoming post to link you to my new blog.
Thanks for reading.